Nov 5,2024.
Here is what I wrote today in my daily morning pages diary. Felt like sharing when I finished writing
We just completed our one year of mourning for Dad half hour ago when sun arose at 5:30 AM. So I suppose it’s time we let go dad in our daily life as we get to normal times again. I don’t know if there is a soul that actually travels to heaven, and if it would have entered now. But from a more rationalistic point of you, we all got to let him go from our thoughts as a mourning. As mom put it to last night, dad lived a full life until 93 years old, and hence one should celebrate his passing away rather than have sorrow over it. We should have gotten used to living without him for now. Now officially it’s time to announce that he is part of ‘memory’ and nothing more. We have had our good and hard times with him. They will all be part of our memories now like many others. From today we will celebrate festivals, we will have no guilt in eating good food ignorant of his loss in our daily lives. We will have functions and spiritual practices at full level, and hopefully of good events to in our families in coming times. So here is my farewell to him, not to the soul for I am not sure if there exists one, but surely to my hard times remembering his death and bereaving in my everyday life. I have lost perhaps the greatest and deepest of my friends in my later life and there is no second thinking that I am at loss. But time to move on!
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